I’ve questioned what being in love is
And I’ve pointed out the differences between simply loving someone and being in love
And I know what it’s like to love and be loved
And I thought I knew what it was like to be in love, but I realized a little while ago that I was just in love with the idea of a person and only in lust with them
But ideas could not have prepared me for what was to come with actually falling in love
I knew that I was capable of loving someone the way that I love you, but I just didn’t think that it would happen so soon in my life
And I must say…it is by far one of my favorite surprises
I find myself not being able to fall asleep without being next to you and hearing you breathe
Your arrhythmic heart is quite possible my favorite beat
I find myself not afraid of the future and somewhat excited for it
And I usually unintentionally try impress people with my words but I find myself being at a loss for them sometimes, other than the well known three
When I’m drunk, I either go on about you to others or go on to you about the things that you do that make it impossible for me not to love you
You make me feel like a thirteen year old with my first “real” crush
And if we’re giggling at our own stupidities or poking fun at our insecurities or lying in bed at 3a.m. talking about or hopes and dreams and childhoods or having a serious discussion that comes after fighting, I wouldn’t rather be anywhere else
When I look at the full moon right in front of me, I think of the night that you set your phone beside me and played “Hey Pretty Girl” by Kip Moore and told me that every word reminds you of me
I never admitted it, but a few tears streamed down my face
For one of the first times, I couldn’t think of even the wrong words to say, so I immediately took your face in my shaky hands and kissed you
It was the first time that I told you that I loved you without the hurt in my voice
And you won’t admit it, but I saw the tears of relief surfacing in your eyes
I don’t think I’ve witnessed anything more beautiful from you
I’ve always said that I don’t see the point in posting about your relationship all over social media
I’ve always been under the impression that it caused more harm than good
But goddamn, sometimes you just want to tell anyone and everyone that you are happy and it is because of that person
You told me that, “when I fell for you, I questioned if I ever actually loved anyone before”
And when I tell you that I love you, “I feel warm inside. And that concept of butterflies is bullshit, it’s a whole damn zoo”
I find my self nuzzling my face in closer to your neck every couple of minutes while I’m falling asleep because I just want to be even closer
Even with legs intertwined and hearts parallel and fingers interlocked
When you wrap your arms around me at night, you always keep one hand over my heart to feel it beat and say that it just feels sweeter every time
Love seems obsessive, but I don’t think that you could ever feel too much
Or tell that person enough times
There may be no “tomorrow” for one of you, so just go on and say it
Better yet, go on and show it
Go on and feel it
“You can’t tell me you didn’t feel anything there”
~Megan